I don't even know why I am so blind.

Today you hurt me more than you would ever realize. You hurt me a lot a lot and oh how I wish I could just stop caring

When I got home and the whole truth hit me hard I just let the tears fall because I was too tired of holding back and suppressing everything. I just let them fall.

Till now I don't even know if you meant it as a passing remark or an occasional revealing of your heart. Or maybe I'm just trying to kid myself that everything is alright and that you are giving as much as I am when ... well I actually do know that you hate me so much. So why do I still keep on trying when I know it's all futile sigh