i guess all we can ever do is trust in Him no matter how hard or weird or ridiculous it is and don't give up. keep on hoping. don't lose sight of your reward above. keep the faith (har de har). the whole situation seems so ludicrous to me for some odd reason it is positively laughable.

anyway moving on to less morbid stuff and more superficial light-hearted updates, i have decided to go back to new year resolution #1 sigh and i guess i have to uncheck #2 which is to maintain my 30/30 for NAPFA and that comes crashing all 'round me now cos ... i got a C for SBJ for the first time in my life!!! contrary to other people SBJ has always been a no-problem station for me but then this year ....... i don't even know what happened i was jumping my usual during practice

#4 is so implausible i have to share it with everyone so that they can join in the laughter
#4 is to get a distinction for grade 8

ok that is all i am very sleepy my brain is not functioning right now i have no idea what i am typing am i coherent i guess not so

good night x