but i haven't started on homework at all idk should i sleep or should i sleep e__e the bags under my eyes are seriously designer ok so fab and all *-*

i'm crying over whatsapp like really everything happening there is too hilarious i legit fell off my sofa

on friday when we were taking the train to alpha, i got a call and i thought that it was some idiot telemarketer because the number said unknown, so i put the phone on loudspeaker and passed it to arielle and she made some high pitched noise at it. at first it was quite silent on the other side but after a while the person was like "hello? this is moe calling ..." and i was like o m g oops hahahahaha. yup so it was actually moe telling me that i got shortlisted for eles and i have to go down for an interview but the problem is i kind of forgot the date and time that the person told me and gillian said hers is during class camp period and maybe mine is too :'( burden sia i really want to go ophir i don't want to loner around without my class during those 4 days sigh

so anyway i came here because there was something important i needed to blog about but then when i switched on the com i got distracted by Things like 2048-tetris (it's gr9 do try it but it might bring your productivity level even lower than it already is so maybe not) and clearing out my layout archive and now i realised i forgot what i needed to write about :(

my mum chased me to bed about 15 minutes ago but i'm still here on my com on the premise that i am supposed to be doing my PI but i'm really tired and drained so i might just go to sleep and risk getting scolded by lydia tan. i can only hope that this does not go back to victoria ugh because i tell you she really has something against me and she's so niao i can't believe i'm stuck with her for the next 2 years o m g

tmr we're going to arielle's house to prac for the busking thing (hehe reminds me of rock audition prac) instead of bb i think abel is annoyed at me and i think they all want me out of the band because i'm really very useless and clumsy and all my notes are jarring but they're just all too nice to tell me straight out

and what's worse is just now at my aunt's house my aunt came over and asked me if i had exams next week and i was like "huh no??" so she replied "hao ming arh" and i am thinking omg what am i doing with my acad life and i got a bit annoyed at her too because she didn't bother to find out more and just assumed that because i have no exams it means there's no stress but at this point i was thinking too much that my brain was almost reaching capacity, so i just went back to watching night at the museum II on the tv. but even then ...... mood spoiler sia.

lastly i stained my jeans because i scratched at my leg till it bled through my jeans and just now my aunt noticed it and asked if i was on my monthly thing because there was a red stain ...... and it's quite embarrassing because i am on my thing and i was quite scared that i really did stain my pants because of that

tbh i am generally just quite moody today bc crAmps and all ... and PI. aiya actually it's a lot of things but i can't list them here because people will judge :( suffice to say that they're such dumb and loserly reasons that i am embarrassed to even think about them

nowadays i find myself at a loss for words more and more often. i used to have more things to say (even though it was already counted very little then) but now my mind just goes blank and remains blank and i stay in that blankness for a long time because it feels so comfortable. but it also means that if you talk to me sometimes you might not get a reply because i have entered the blank state of mind midway through your sentence.

eh i really can't remember what i wanted to blog so goodnight guys i'm going to sleep .... ... for now hahaha see ya at 3am.