so many things have transpired since i last posted - happy and not-so-happy things alike

orientation was, for the most part, fun, despite all the awkward OG mates i got -__-. it wasn't so bad during the actual orientaiton because nice people like mengyue and qianke (haha yeah i have Open heart and Open mind) kept me company but now that orientation is over and only like 3/4 girls are active on the whatsapp groups i really don't want to go for all those OG meetings that they plan. actually i feel quite bad haha i didn't turn up to give the OGLs their presents and i think lily and i were the only ones who ponned. anyway point is it's really awkward with my OG and i don't like 1/3 of my OGLs tbh esp after the letter he sent me

6G is kinda cool. idk whether it's because we've been seeing each other way more often but i already like them better than HH01 ... haha maybe that's good. actually, knowing only kim he in my class had its benefits too like most of my classmates don't have any preconceived notions about me though one of my classmates came up to me and asked "are you faith ang?" and i was quite shocked i fell off a chair in my head.

i've given up talking to people already i just let people talk to me now, which means nowadays i live in relative silence. and i always don't know whether to dao or say hi so i just end up doing the former cos lazy and scared also hahaha.

after being best buds with janelle and pei xuan i've kind of forgotten how hardworking and studious normal raffles kids are. like completing homework on time (more or less) is the norm??? since when?! usually i only end up doing 25% of assigned homework and submit like 15% .... thereabouts. possibly even less. i think i've kind of lost track of normative student behaviour bc all my new friends / classmates seem really smart and 'on' while i am simply off ha ha ha.

blazer is such a blazer he is like the // flash //
he's the speediest person i've ever met and i mean this literally

i have an eyecandy in my class his name is shiyi. i hope no one finds this guys are supposed to be good at IT stuff right oops. to clarify i've been ec-ing him since last wed ok i was here first

i feel kind of sad that i'm losing old friends, esp px and janelle bc they are those types who adapt really fast to changes in their environment. px and i were really close but now i feel like we're rapidly drifting apart and i'm starting to miss our friendship :( i can't be my normal freakishly weird self around anybody else :( :( always, the rot starts online and ends online. funny how it's like a boomerang.

ya that's it i guess i really am tired
it's so hard
why doesn't anybody else get it