it was a few months ago when i met you for the first time, but it wasn't the first time you met me. like how things usually are between the two of us (as i would later find out to my cost) you reached there long before i did.

every time i receive something from you, i'd be all "here you go again", but i'd still give you yet another chance to prove me wrong (cos i'm soft like that). so far you brag a perfect few-months-long losing streak.

^ just something i had to get rid off bc it's been irritating me so


anyway

it's almost 20th dec i.e. posting day i.e. the day i would find out whether or not my bro(s) would be joining me at one raffles institution lane next year i.e. the date that i would have moved on to marketing dept. today at work was tired and bleak in the morning because i was so sleepy, i actually fell asleep leaning backwards on my desk chair and listening to the therapeutic taps of my colleagues' fingers on their keyboards. then came lunch, which was spent in the pantry with a group of friends (not mine tho haha) laughing away at the comments of a dana-ruthanne-mel fusion from my workplace who goes by the name erika. after that shauna took pity on the fast-falling-asleep-again me and assigned me a new project which was equal parts tedious and relaxing. either way it was fulfilling because i finally got to do something that's actually of use to my colleagues :')

the name erika/erica would always bring to my mind a musical prodigy no matter how many erika/ericas i meet hm

while i was walking home i got into thinking about how tumblr was what really ignited my passion for design - too bad this fire is quite easily put out and i find myself running out of matches

in fact, i've been scrimping on my matchbox for quite some time now. i don't even have any hobbies anymore (besides eating and sleeping obv)

i am kind of sorry i ignored j cos now i'm paying the price .... or would she'd treated me like this anyway? i guess i would never find out now.

slightly related: i fear i am getting the *horrifying* j affinity from pei xuan bc suddenly i am finding myself surrounded by j's

i was really sleepy on the bus ride home but now i can't fall asleep and i doubt i'd be able to till around 2am ditto the past few nights

lyfe iz h4rd y0z u gadda stand up fo' youselfs know