if you were to ask 12-year-old me, still fresh from primary school graduation, what i thought my secondary school graduation would be like, it most definitely would not match up to my experience today.

it is too heartbreaking </3

i didn't get to say a proper goodbye to my classmates-i-hang-out-with (excluding pei xuan cox we r best buds) before we all left but ... i feel really sad.

in fact i felt really really sad after half my class went to ecp and the other half went their separate ways, when i went with bernice to collect our money (like finally) from tck and also when i entered the gb room after that. all i really wanted to do then was sit down and cry, but unfortunately i wasn't granted that liberty.

didn't get the chance to tell those said people that i really appreciate them (and i hate myself for this, but i don't think i'd have the guts to tell them that i love them straight in their face anyway). but i do :(

ok la it's more complicated than that as things usually are but alright you get the gist of it.

and because i know my mind would erase these memories, i'd have to record them down here so that future me would know what happened on graduation day / GB farewell.

in the end a ctrl-x-ed the whole chunk bc it became too honest and therefore too intimate to share :c