there are some days when all the sad and the bad finally catches up with you and you walk around burdened by the immense load upon your shoulders, overwhelmed by everything.

today was one of those days :c total burnout 1379
my heart aches for what i once had and once lost and will never find again

anyway i finished reached but it wasn't as good as crossed (at least, that's what i think). when i was reading crossed it was really sobfest2012 and i was crying / sniffing / dying at every other sentence but when i was reading reached i was just -okaycan- but then again it might be because in the time between my reading of crossed and reached i had finally come to terms with my own sucky life ~_~ and gone all dispassionate and unfeeling ~___~ what am i even saying

on to feedback now then i am devouring books like how my classmates are devouring their bio / phy / chem / geog notes

oh right and also !!! i need to recount the dream i had last night for the sake of my future self

so yesterday i went for bio structured remedial and the teacher was telling another girl about how they just rushed their marking and would be returning papers this week and i guess this somehow registered in my subconscious because yesternight i dreamt about receiving bio results hahaha

since i'm index no. 1 i went up first to receive my paper and as usual i didn't look at my marks on the front cover first but flipped through the paper and i saw lots and lots of red crosses but no ticks, so i knew i failed. then i went to pei xuan and took the paper on her table and flipped through it and realised that she had full marks so i was congratulating her and everything when she said, "no lah not mine, it's janelle's." so i flipped to the front and looked at the name but no it wasn't janelle's but dana's and i was just cheyyy no lah. then i realised px was looking really sad and disappointed so i asked her what she got and she replied, "i did really badly leh only 70 upon 80 :( :(" omg virtual slap her

then i woke up

ok idk when my next bio lesson is but if the teacher announces that one person from our class obtained full marks you know who it is hahaha psychic powers of mine