holidays r over creys kill me now
i have done nothing this hols in terms of Actual School Work like all hw undone, all tests not prepared for etc idk what i'm going to do when school starts (that's in 2 days!) without failing all subjects (as usual)

but anyway in case future me forgets, i went to yogya and then pbb camp and then desaru and then the ~*non-existent june camp*~ c:

i really loved yojya and its beautiful scenery and beautiful people.

not sure what this is but LETZ MOOVUHN

too lazy to edit the photos but here they are c: beautiful things in beautiful yogya. even after i came back i would find myself awake immediately at 6.30 (HAPPENZ EVERYTIM) and wondering what to do now that my life was over.

my life is over ;__;

ok then the trip was shortly followed by PBB selection camp ... which is honestly the very very best camp that i've been to. i learnt lots and loved lots and had lots of joy with group joy c': i think maybe i had the chance to take back something more from the camp, because unlike others i went there without a single shred of expectation of getting the award because duhh who would ever want to choose me for any award / scholarship / whatever, and while others were busy putting on a show in front of the officers i was enjoying myself and taking in all the lessons whole. yup there are lots of people out there /ahemahem who pretend to not want it but everything they did during the camp was for the benefit of the officers and it was so apparent that it made me sick. ok one of my groupmate confessed that she wanted the award, and then pestered us to think of something !creative! for game planning -- i was thinking aiyo dis kind of person, but at least she was being honest. but so many people (including 45th kids -__-) were being such bigass hypocrites during the camp that i was a little disheartened ... like is this really GB? and just recently another groupmate said she wanted to go again next year ... but not because she wants the whole experience again, but (surprise, surprise!) so that she could try to get the award again. can you see my face rn -__________-

ok but anyway like i said it was a really good camp. one experience that would really stay with me forever was this ice cream stick game that we played during our night at pulau ubin. as a group we were supposed to form some structure according to an image that we were shown for 10 seconds prior to the game. each person was given a rule but we couldn't talk so it was really frustrating!! the rule i was given was that i was the only one allowed to touch the sticks so can you imagine my immense frustration ..... yes so anyway we played for 1+ hour and i was almost ready to cry and yup it was so tiring :(

and then my group was in charge of breakfast on the last day and we decided to prepare fruit salad. it was q nice and all :) only that all the fruits oxidised and we got scolded 2582374x that morning cos of that :c and then after breakfast we locked ourselves out of our dorm and feedback just arrived that because of that the whole group wouldn't be getting the award haha x) ah well good tiemz / strict tiemz / scary tiemz though

moving on to The June Camp That Never Happened: it never happened.

i think that's all?? oh thanks angeline for introducing me to epubbud i downloaded like 13 books and am now happykid97 :>

and guess what i found the codes for my long-ago retro layout i am celebrating this discovery by using it