it's 12.42AM and i'm wondering what i'm doing with my life

#1 i have not started studying for tomorrow's karangan exam / #2 i did not study for the chem and math exams i had today (or yesterday, technically) / #3 why am i so dumb and useless idek

my inability to feel stress is causing me a lot of problems that would - theoretically - stress me out but because i can't be stressed i just mess up my life big time instead

also have not started on shirt design
nor RS (everyone else is done with theirs ;__; and i'm here ;__; wat)
o m g

i really have nothing to say all my thoughts have vaporised

sometimes i feel like i'm left behind all broken and bent while everyone else is testing their wings and soaring above the clouds

and then other times i feel like i'm so much further ahead and i'm waiting for the rest of the world to catch up but they never ever do, because i'm the odd puzzle piece in the mix

everything is relative ~_~