happy good friday!! <: and super-long weekend for all the raffles people with holiday on monday
too many shocking revelations to write down so my dear lethalities@blogspot, i shall spare you the gory details and instead fill you with useless technical markstones of my existence over the past few days.

on wednesday i ran more than 3 rounds around the track for the first time since the 2.4km test last year and now my muscles are cursing me and my PE teacher and the world in general

this relatively vigorous exercise was promptly followed by 2 more rounds around the track, 30 IPUs, 10 SBJs and 4 laps on the monkey bars ... the price i pay is a full body ache lasting for 2 days and blisters on my palms.

on friday i was supposed to run again but got too lazy plus we bought this ice cream making machine so now i feast on ice cream every day to supplement my ample lipids.

also i created a new instagram account as a tribute to my alter ego (and i got 32 likes which is not bad for 11 followers)

lastly i feel like crying because my computer crashed and all my precious files, including but not limited to: old coded layouts, my graphics, photo-editing materials, photos, old e-memorabilia and school-related documents are all gone

:'( i really have a lot a lot of precious / important files in there omg i really really need them


update 10.13PM:
aww felly and ruth are such inspirations on my LJ feed (which i use to stalk people now since i am a loyal blogspot user) and they don't even know it and every time i laugh at some corny joke or (almost) cry at something inspiring or heartwarming on my feed i feel so thankful that i got to know these amazing people and ... ya

i especially like ruth's post on concerns in JC vs In The End ... i think it's really true lah about how there are always 2 sides to each situation -- you can choose to make the best out of it, or you can choose to sulk. well ruth has always been making the best out of everything and i must really learn from her!!! but howzzz i feel like saying i'm naturally pessimistic but that's not making light of the situation so i shall say i will strive to be optimistic

and:

"i don't know how to be a friend or encourage anyone anymore when they find out that i am really just a patchwork of rightly-worded excuses." -felly

i may not be able to relate totally to that seeing that i never knew how to be a friend / encourage anyone, let alone anymore ... but i do feel that if someone were to put me under their close scrutiny they would realise that i lie and fake even more than they even think i do (yes i know you think you know a lot of my secrets you don't think i do but i actually have more) and i feel so lousy all the time and sometimes i burst and i annoy people but then i feel that there are so many things i actually hide and no one knows the severity of it - all the medical records etc which i don't mention or show, what happened in 2009 that i never really told anyone besides the parties involved ... and sometimes when i cry out to you, i'm not just seeking attention for the sake of seeking attention but no one realises that because my life is just so fine and dandy and they know i cannot think deeper than "what should i eat for lunch today" or "ew she is annoying"
everyone is denied the chance of letting all their stuff out. the whole human race is actually just stuffed pinatas walking about with happy smiles and twinkling eyes plastered onto their papery faces

^^^^^^^^one paragraph full of crap

also currently catching up on all the march camp blogposts that i haven't read due to my computer crashin' on me right after march camp. idk but i'm not really a big fan of camps cos while it is a really bonding experience (as proved by sec 1 march camp) i kind of get tired of the people i sleep / live with during the 3 days like last year during the kuching trip i just got quieter and quieter till my voice was extinguished completely by the third day and how my mouth opens only at 11.30pm (desiree bears testimony to this) cos in the dark it's kind of like speaking online - it's just the content that matters, no facial expressions, no eye contact, etc etc which i guess is why i only talk then? but ya lah but to my main point: if you don't really know your campmates that well (like eg OBS was kind of okayish, march camp'10 was fun cos i didn't know GTE then), then it's alright but otherwise ... uhhhh yup you get my point.

ps: If A = 1, B = 2, C = 3, D = 4, E = 5 ... Y = 25, Z = 26,

then HARD WORK = 8+1+18+4+23+15+18+11 = 98% 
KNOWLEDGE = 11+14+15+23+12+5+4+7+5 = 96% 
but ATTITUDE = 1+20+20+9+20+21+4+5 = 100%
cool or cool??
(from ruth's lj)

pps: God's grace exemplified through the spirit of Easter :D :D and it's good cos when people say oh it's Easter Sunday or Good Friday i don't think of eggs or bunnies ... i think of Jesus and Jesus and Jesus :) and hoping that it'd be the same for everyone else too
also why is the unchristianified Christian cross becoming so popz now isn't it quite worrying but i don't see this matter being addressed anywhere ...