no matter what i do i cannot disguise the fact that i didn't do anything for june camp
and everyone knows i'm a bitch now so might as well say it:
i don't like my cca and i don't like my batch
no no scratch that i don't don't like my batch i just don't like spending time with it and mostly it's my fault but now that my anger has ceased and i can think rationally again i realised that people forgetting about me triggered it too (eg. sam and isabel forgot that i was in games comm and therefore didn't enlist my help to do the proposal and then i think later they complained about me amongst themselves) and also angeline who forgets everyone and leave them behind wow i'm very sure deborah would have felt so touched and appreciative if she knew that you didn't even notice she was gone -___- not until you were on the bus and far far away from the school. thirdly i just don't want to take a photo can you not force me? is it within my responsibility to take a batch photo? how does me not taking a batch photo disadvantage the rest of the batch?? is it compulsory to take a complete batch photo to get promoted or something?! i'm not going to apologise for you all not having a nice batch photo because i already told desiree and jessalyn to not waste the ma'am's time and to just take a batch photo without me but my words were unheeded ~_~ i am really really not comfortable having my photo taken okay??? sorry my bitchy mode is fully switched on right now (my anger has unceased itself) so if i read this say a few hours later i'd probably think no no no i don't mean all this but this is what i feel right now and i had better rant here because i am currently a ticking time bomb.
sometimes it's so bad because when i see the batch unhappy feelings just get into my head and then i have to distance myself from everyone before i explode and bash someone up by anger.
this is why i am so tempted to just jump off a building and end my life sometimes because everyone and everything is telling me constantly: the world will be a better place without you, good for nothing useless ugly talentless idiotic annoying hateful bitch and if ever God made a single mistake it would be creating you
fine
讲气话罢了
i'm most probably quitting soon anyway
Labels: what a bitch i am, why are you even reading this, ಠ_ಠ
