contrary to popular belief i have not been kidnapped by a man or abducted by aliens though i got a good scolding from my mother this afternoon for making her worry u_u hahaha oh my friend tweeted "Fingers r itching" and i immediately thought of her playing itchy fingers hahaha

today we went to june's house after sergeants' weekend to pass her her birthday present and sing her a birthday song and we ended up eating high tea there for a long, long time. i never had so much fun in my lyfe ~_~

i have decided to go for exco interviews in the end because it would be so awkward to tell the sec 4s "hi pls don't be expecting me to show up so don't include me in the schedule" and what if ms wong finds out and calls my mother??? though i still see absolutely no point in going for it except that it is only responsible to do so

i have had rashes everywhere especially my back since yesterday and till now they haven't fully subsided. there are red patches all over at random places (on my back and other innocent parts besides below my right boob) ...... maybe i'm turning into a desiree

this is such an ideal time to blog because my parents are out and i don't feel so under pressure / asdfghjkl unhappy because they force me to talk all the time but i have nothing to say

also i am currently reading a book called speak by laurie halse anderson (hey desiree it's the same author who wrote wintergirls and i like it better than wintergirls!!) and it's about this girl who refuses to talk and i think the book is affecting me because it's so well-written and now i'm talking even less than i normally do ...

my parents tell me (sometimes, the rest of the time they tell me i'm the most selfish person in the whole world which is true) that i have very low self-esteem but what they don't know is that i actually think too highly of myself and that's why others always find me proud and arrogant and egoistic

crying like don't know what already and i just don't care so all you twitter followers sorry feel free to unfollow me



people are asking me to quit gb ell oh ell
45th would be a better company if i did. batch'13 would be a nearer-perfect batch and peishan and kathy and deborah will miraculously contribute more and be more proactive. heralds would become the epitome of awesomeness. GTE would be the coolest squatch ever. one less oddball/misfit/bitch does make a whole lot of difference on the company. shirim would get first next year when there's no faith talentless ugly challenged-rhythmwise clumsy faith to pull it down and everyone will live happily ever after :-) people will look at gb and think, "wow how come i never knew such an awesome cca existed!! it has all the cool and nice and funny and socially-unawkward people!!"

i think i'm driving myself crazy and maybe i should go seek help at IMH now

p/s: today we hunted thappyending down and creeped her out big time