stop patronising me and stuff i'd prefer it if you all would just fucking leave me alone sometimes. you know - if i could choose, i wouldn't choose any of you. ok fine even as i write this i don't think i really mean it but just so pissed right now i don't want to care and i don't care but too bad, i have to care.

watched catching fire today #nofriends

today was such a bad bad day i have nothing to say but i'm leaving for mars soon and i don't think i'd have the chance to post anything there (except maybe on the microblog) so i'm just going to post here now.

"okay?" i screamed into the darkness.
"'kay, 'kay, 'kay," echoed the walls.
the quiet murmur of audience (i have keen ears)
but no one replies.

* i don't even dare to ask you out but i want to :'(