my fantasies crashed around me as realisation kicked in
i will never be loved

o u c h

today was a day for ogling at pretty girls *-* and occasional hot guys ... and cute kids ... aiya good-looking people in general. also i took a long nap in the afternoon and woke up to the wafting fragrance of dinner :')

i don't know whether to classify today as good or bad. i seem to be going through a lot of emotional trauma lately someone save me ;___;

rn i am thinking of the sambal chilli i had for dinner it was really yummy


ps i forgot to mention that i finished reading vortex :'( </3 i was reading it in the gb room after malay and 不知不觉 i reached the end of the book </3 </3 aw man now i have to wait till the 3rd book comes out before i can resume my escapism cries

currently reading allegiant but i can't seem to get into it because i read divergent/insurgent so long ago all my feels are forgotten plus insignia/vortex was so intense that i am still unable to get out of it

i keep thinking about how you probably treated me nicely only because you knew we'd never see each other again. what's the use of being hostile if it can't be used as a deterrent, right? ha ha. idiot bitch.

weird neurotic people