malay is such a beautiful language :) to some it might sound coarse but in reality it is so rich in culture and it's just so colourful (haha uhhh)!! in p6 i only wanted to learn it because i was being my usual pragmatist self but after 2+ years of learning it i realise that it's very different from english. you see the thing about english is that well it's so widely used, it's become so cosmopolitan that the culture and meaning has already been lost. as for chinese ~_~ i've given up a long time ago

on a totally unrelated note i have very weird dreams hahaha but sometimes they are really beautiful *-* there's this one particular dream i had in p6 that is really so beautiful ahhh gosh i want to dream it again so badly!! oh and you know during my afternoon nap today i dreamt that my family went for a holiday and we ended up in some place near the sea and it was really beautiful!! like the chinese would say you shan you shui (there were mountains too now that i recall) :) okay now the weird part: i cut my own bangs!! hahaha must be cos i've been thinking too much about whether to cut my hair or not :< anyway after i cut them i looked awful and i tried to hide my face from my mother but she saw in the end and she scolded me "gen ni jiang ji ci liao hao yao gen wo jian!!!" so i went to the mirror and tried to make myself look as unweird as possible and then i suddenly realised that my face was full of pimples!! there were just red spots all over :c and i was so depressed that i decided to never ever leave the house again ......... then i remembered that i wasn't at home i was holidaying :c :c

and also:

i'm in love with books ♡
we went to the library yesterday and i borrowed a few books :>

fourthly (oh gosh i have so many things to blog about), i've become so ______ (no exact word to describe my feelings) nowadays i don't even-- on some days i just cannot communicate / express myself at all and i start doing really stupid things eg. on open house i started venting my anger on my poor drum :c gahh if i was actually good in english maybe i could describe how i feel but no my vocab is limited to sad happy and angry and i do feel sad happy and angry but also something more or rather many things more.

lastly i've been trying to diligently do my music homework recently and that's why i'm so pissed off with myself gah i really cannot do aural when i'm so tone deaf ;__; plus i have a serious lack of rhythm too :( maybe i should just quit shirim instead of pulling the band down all the time (i've seen zhixin give me the look when i play the bass drum) (and angeline's awkwardness when talking to me about my tenoring) (and yiwei's quiet death glares)

find out if you're tone deaf! (the one leti tweeted about)
or at the other end of the spectrum, if you have perfect pitch :)

so many things so easily bring me to tears nowadays