so sleepy and it's only 11.37 plus i have loads of undone homework to do
thanks for making my life difficult the two of you and fyi i do do my math homework & worksheets l0l betchu dint know that the two of you who am i kiddin

anyway today is an alright day :> by alright i mean quite good because life is kind of STRESS, PRESSURE, TIREDNESS, LONELINESS in big bold blinking bashes and it makes me wonder what has happened to the school what has happened to society? why is there so much unnecessary stress??? i noticed that recently i have been overusing my "stress comes sometimes" label and why is this so why do i even feel stressed. maybe it's really like angeline said - the school is going crazy this year, what with the insanely stressable stretched out SAs and the multitudinous AAs & PTs dumped onto us at the same time and expected within incredulously short time spans - i think many people are already bursting at their seams.

also i recently i've been having this ridiculously wrong mindset (the one we all tend to have sometimes). prayer is not a last resort but sometimes i get too caught up with all these earthly things that i forget and also sometimes i use God as a mere means to an end (haha, philo) but how is that right in any way? i keep having to remind myself what is right and what is not because my mind is getting out of track so frequently and so easily. i'm so worried for my marks so scared that i'll fail all my exams and i suspect i did.

on a slightly related note, f1 is really stressing me out a lot and so is malay :( i have so few commitments as compared to the rest of the school and already i feel the pressure, tell me this has got to be wrong. sometimes i find that all that is powering me and sustaining me is anger.

but to end this on a lighter note yesterday was my mother's birthday c: